A Miracle 4 Us


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neverhavetobealone:

I want to make this! If only I knew how?!

Yes I am high jacking this from neverhavetobealone bc let&#8217;s face it, it&#8217;s adorable!  Jen, whatcha think?  Want another project or two?  ;)

neverhavetobealone:

I want to make this! If only I knew how?!

Yes I am high jacking this from neverhavetobealone bc let’s face it, it’s adorable!
Jen, whatcha think? Want another project or two? ;)

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How Far Along: 26 weeks (&2 days): the pics were taken on week 26 as I was getting ready to spend the afternoon at the pool with some girlfriends :)

Size of Baby: On Friday (5/12) my mom scanned me and she was weighing around 1lb 13oz’s and measuring 25 weeks, 5 days….all that worry about her being small for nothing!

What You’re Doing : Updating my bill pay as I had to get a new card and loving on sweet Roxie girl.

Cravings: Absolutely none. Do they really exist?

Sleep: It’s still pretty good. I have developed right-sided siatica which makes rolling sometimes a bit hard, but overall, no issues. I still only pee about 1-2 times a night.

Names: No progress this week…still taking suggestions on little girls names!

Gender: Little girl

Symptoms: Heartburn, night time puking, sore sciatica and sore nipples.  The sciatica seems to have let up a bit.  I can now walk without looking awkward and the puking, while continues has decreased in the amount.  Heartburn is controlled by Pepcid or Zantac and the occasional Tums.  My nipples are a bit more tender and I am hoping it’s because I am growing?!?!  I am right in between bra sizes which is exciting (I would love my boobs to be a bit bigger!), but frustrating because my current ones are a bit snug and not covering as they should, yet the next size has that little ‘gap’ issue.  Hmmmmm. I also don’t want to really buy new bras this late in the game because I am hoping to breast feed and will then need to purchase nursing bras.  Can you guess what size you will need so I can just go ahead and buy them? 

What are you looking forward to: So many things…in just about a week mom and nana will arrive for my June 2nd shower.  I am so excited to see them both, show them the nursery, and to have them meet everyone that they hear me talk about so often.  I can’t wait to see what this sweet girl looks like, to see C’s face when he first sees her and holds her, how Roxie will be around her, to kiss her face and rock her to sleep.  Yes, I know having a baby rocked to sleep and to fall asleep on your chest instills ‘bad’ sleeping patterns, but ohhhhh how I long for those moments!

What is baby doing this week: She is an active little one just like her dad!  She is still on a routine (helloooo mom), but her activity has definitely picked up more often.  C was laying on the bed talking to me the other night and all of a sudden got a very strange look on his face.  He was watching my stomach and it was going CRAZY with movements and we both wondered what the heck she was doing in there! 

Best thing about this week: The nursery being completed!!!!  Well, the walls and closet are.  The furniture was added on Sunday and while it is was not my first choice and would not be had we gotten it new (its a natural wood color), with the walls and bedding it actually looks pretty good.  I think it helps break up the whiteness and lets face it, I couldn’t make C change the wood (stain it or paint it) and we don’t have $1000 to drop on furniture so it’s all good.  The glider was part of the ‘package’ as well and it’s okay.  We definitely have to buy/make new cushions and I think it will then be comfy, but C hates it.  He has his mind set on one of the expensive chair-type gliders and while I agree they are awesome (some of them), i just can’t stomach $500 on a chair and ottoman that we don’t know how often we will use. I know some that use theirs always, while others never touched theirs.  IF we go that route, I want to invest in one that we can incorporate into our living room so it doesn’t go to complete waste.  We may look around a bit and just see what we find.  Who knows.  Otherwise I/we have to decide what else to do in the nursery as far as decorations.  I don’t want too much, as I like the simplicity of the walls.  Clean. Simple. Classic. 

Maternity Clothes: All the time. I still wear my normal yoga pants and a few shirts, but have to wear a belly band because most are a bit too short. 

What do you miss? While I don’t really ‘miss’ anything, sometimes I do want to curl up on my belly and fall asleep.

Currently Drinking: Room temperature water with a little lemonade.

Any major purchases this week? I bought the cutest little stackable rings.  They are light pink and brown made with a  soft material with a little doggy head at the topper.  Babies R Us had Tommy Tippee bottles on sale so I got a 3 pack of those, extra hangers and yes, I did order a few things from Gap Baby (all in bigger sizes!).  SHHHH!

xo

M

Tagged: 26 weeks

Sneak peak…..The walls and closet were finished tonight!!!  I am always concerned that the vision I have in my head won’t match the final project, but I have to say, C made it happen.  This is EXACTLY and even better than I imagined.  I am in love.  Tomorrow the rods will be placed in the closet, the clothes re-hung and the furniture moved in.  I can’t wait! 

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A teddy bear from Nana…

Childcare…

I dread this converstation.  I dread this thought. I just dread leaving her….already!  I am thankful beyond words to have 12 weeks of maternity leave as I know some can’t take much at all.  I am thankful to be paid (60% of my normal pay) about 8 weeks of those 12 allowed.  What I am not thankful for is having to return to work full-time.  With being a nurse, not working isn’t really an option.  Maintaining my license while not working would be near impossible and just as importantly my oncology certification.  I will NOT sit for either of those boards again unless absolutely necessary and, while many won’t agree, I think having your adult time is important as well.  In a perfect world I would work 2 days a week and have my mom watch her those 2 days.  I don’t live in a perfect world though.  I can’t afford to cut back to 2 days a week, my job isn’t suited for 2 days a week and my mom doesn’t live here to watch Baby J! 

So these thoughts must be had :(  What to do….bring in a nanny? take to a at home day care? have a friend that has offered watch her? church day care? or traditional day care?  When do I start looking/interviewing? And don’t get me started on the cost!  Yes, when you break it down into an hourly fee, it isn’t that much, BUT wow, $1,200/mo is another morgage payment!  Yup, we knew all this going into our 4 years of TCC and we are happy to be here having to worry about all this.  It will work out, but it’s a bit stressful just trying to figure it all out. 

I personally like having someone come into the house because with me working from home I would still be able to continue to nurse (God willing she will take to it!).  The other best option would be our friend, whom has offered, but I worry that it would maybe affect the friendship somehow? Maybe not, but leave it to me to make it a concern.  The one (fingers crossed) good thing is that my employer is looking into allowing me to cut back to 4 days a week, which would be wonderful!  That would give me an extra day with the babe with only affecting us financially a little bit. 

For all those working out of the house mom’s, how did you make it work? How did you decided which option to go for?

Tagged: childcare

25 weeks

How Far Along: 25 weeks (&1 day)

Size of Baby: On Friday (5/12) my mom scanned me and she was weighing around 1lb 13oz’s and measuring 25 weeks, 5 days….all that worry about her being small for nothing!

What You’re Doing : Just got back from a walk with Chris and Roxie, now I am catching up on some missed shows.  

Cravings: Absolutely none. Do they really exist?

Sleep: It’s still pretty good. I have developed right-sided siatica which makes rolling sometimes a bit hard, but overall, no issues. I still only pee about 1-2 times a night.

Names: No progress this week…suggestions on little girls names?

Gender: Little girl

Symptoms: I continue to have issues with sciatica.  At times it is okay, other times it brings tears to my eyes.  I am taking Pepcid daily which is helping the heartburn.  The breast are a bit tender, braxton hicks don’t seem to be quite as often, but still happen.  My days are great, the nights still require a trip to the toilet on my knees, but really, is it bad?  Yes, eating dinner is a lot less fun, but it is all worth it.  Baby J is healthy and growing and that is what matters :)  Oh and I think the belly has grown a significant amount this week! I guess when they say you will eventually just ‘pop’, they were right. 

What are you looking forward to: So many things.  I know I was just with my mom and family, but in just a few short weeks mom and Nana will be down here for my NC shower.  I can’t wait until C is done with the room and we can start putting the furniture in there!!! 

What is baby doing this week: She is an active little one just like her dad!

Best thing about this week: So much!  I got to spend 4 days with my family, which if you know me, means the world to me.  The scan on Friday went GREAT! I have to say I was so nervous that my mom would find something wrong and have to be the one that had to tell me, but nope, everything was great.  AND she’s still a GIRL :)  Could you imagine if another little part had been seen the day before shower 1 full of pink stuff?  She was so happy and wiggling everywhere for the first 30 minutes and as soon as she changing to the 3D she slowed down and fell right to sleep.  This was the 3rd and final 3D picture….her waving goodbye. haha

Saturday morning we were all getting ready to leave when a package was delivered for me.  I wondered what it could have been and from whom.  Mom immediately guessed C while I doubted it was.  Needless to say I opened the package to find 12 of these beauties!  They were HUGE, RED, JUICEY and delicious.  Of course I cried as I read the note : Happy Mothers Days!!! To wifey and mommy  Love Husband and daddy….love this man!

Later that afternoon ANOTHER package was delivered and inside laid gorgeous flowers; tulips which are my fav and iris’s which are my moms.  Considering she was going to have to keep them for the week her favs were added too.  I think he was trying to score some (unneeded) brownie points ;)

Saturday (5/13) was my 1st shower in NY.  It was wonderful!  I am still awaiting the pics from my sis, but it was great.  It was very strange having a shower, for ME!  The gifts were seemed endless, the food was amazing and the people were sweet beyond belief.  I still just can’t believe it.  Some of the clothes I got were the sweetest things I have every seen, the blankets the softest, and the toys the cutest.  

When I got home last night I got to see the room 3/4 done!!!!  The top color is perfect and the bottom part is looking wonderful!! I can’t wait until it is done (tomorrow night?) so I can post a picture.  I am so proud of this handy man I call hubs.  

Maternity Clothes: All the time. I still wear my normal yoga pants and a few shirts, but have to wear a belly band because most are a bit too short. 

What do you miss? While I don’t really ‘miss’ anything, sometimes I do want to curl up on my belly and fall asleep.

Currently Drinking: Room temperature water with a little lemonade.

Any major purchases this week? I haven’t bought anything, but C has been busy buying the trim and paint for the room. 

xo

M

Tagged: 25 weeks

Mothers Day

For years I have dreaded this day. I dreaded the few weeks leading up to it as well bc they were full of ‘what we will be doing’ stories. What the husbands would be doing for the wives in order to celebrate ‘their day’. The name Mothers Day reminded me of what I wanted to badly, but continued to be denied. It hurt so badly and they day always resulted in tears, lots of them. C always tried to be sensitive and give extra hugs. Even prior to trying he would give me flowers and a card from the dog and continued into our years of trying. While it was always so cute, it still hurt. Like so many tough days and moments he was there.
To those still waiting to share the day, please know so many are there for you. You are not alone in your sadness. You are not forgotten and someday, someway, all those aching to hear themselves be called ‘mommy’, will.

Xo

M

Baby J is measuring 25 wks, 5 days (a week ahead!) and weighs 1lb 13oz!!!

Baby J is measuring 25 wks, 5 days (a week ahead!) and weighs 1lb 13oz!!!

This looks like Heaven in a bowl&#8230;

This looks like Heaven in a bowl…

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ohhappymiracle:

I seriously love you Sabine. You took the words RIGHT out of my mouth. Actually, you probably said it better…
sabine:

Here’s the thing about “the” Time cover: It’s not the exposed breastfeeding that irks me — I like that they have a woman breastfeeding on the cover. I think breastfeeding is great and should be out there and not something that shames the mother or child. It’s not the picture: It’s the headline. 
It’s the implication that mothers who practise attachment parenting are more mom than those who don’t. And it’s not just breastfeeding or attachment parenting — It’s everything. It’s going through gossip magazines and reading features like “Stars with Maxi Mommy Style” and “Best Bodies after Baby”. It is no longer enough that we are bearing children and raising them to be self-sufficient, responsible and respecting adults. We have to by stylish while we’re at it! We have to provide all-organic snacks to the darlings! Provide toys that have educational structure! Enroll the darlings in Mandarin- or Spanish-language daycares! Sugar-free and nut-free and gluten-free cakes because we can’t exclude anyone from a hand-crafted themed birthday party! And we can’t eat any of those cakes because how dare we still not be back to our pre-baby weight! It only took Jessica Alba 10 weeks* to prance around in a bikini after having her second! 
It’s a women’s only keeping-up-with-the-Joneses rat race that makes motherhood overwhelming. 
I don’t really buy organic foods. I let Luisa snack on cookies. I’ve never bought a toy for it’s educational value. I did have gluten-free brownies at her birthday party but really, it was because that brownie recipe makes wonderfully chewy, chocoaltely brownies. I didn’t diet or swear to run a half-marathon to lose the baby weight by 10 weeks after baby. I was back to shape after having Luisa, but my body will never be the same. 
That’s ok. 
It’s ok because motherhood changes us emotionally and mentally and physically is just part of that package. 
It’s ok because Luisa is happy, healthy, thriving, and loving. She’s smart, she’s playful and fun. All of those things that might not make me “mom enough” don’t matter because of that. 
And I’m mom enough to accept that. You should too. 
So, Happy Mother’s Day! You’re doing a great job. 
*Jessica Alba sucks. That woman went on a 1200-calorie-a-day diet and worked out one to three hours a day for five days a week. That’s crazy. 


This is so well written.  Today it seems everyone is trying only to keep up, but out do everyone else.  It&#8217;s a race to this &#8220;perfection&#8221;, but is it really perfection?  What is perfection in motherhood or in life?  I think everyone&#8217;s &#8220;perfect&#8221; life looks different and that is a good thing! Different makes thing interesting.  Different makes people learn, strive and interact. I know when our baby comes my goal is to do what is best for HER and what is best for MY family.

ohhappymiracle:

I seriously love you Sabine. You took the words RIGHT out of my mouth. Actually, you probably said it better…

sabine:

Here’s the thing about “the” Time cover: It’s not the exposed breastfeeding that irks me — I like that they have a woman breastfeeding on the cover. I think breastfeeding is great and should be out there and not something that shames the mother or child. It’s not the picture: It’s the headline. 

It’s the implication that mothers who practise attachment parenting are more mom than those who don’t. And it’s not just breastfeeding or attachment parenting — It’s everything. It’s going through gossip magazines and reading features like “Stars with Maxi Mommy Style” and “Best Bodies after Baby”. It is no longer enough that we are bearing children and raising them to be self-sufficient, responsible and respecting adults. We have to by stylish while we’re at it! We have to provide all-organic snacks to the darlings! Provide toys that have educational structure! Enroll the darlings in Mandarin- or Spanish-language daycares! Sugar-free and nut-free and gluten-free cakes because we can’t exclude anyone from a hand-crafted themed birthday party! And we can’t eat any of those cakes because how dare we still not be back to our pre-baby weight! It only took Jessica Alba 10 weeks* to prance around in a bikini after having her second! 

It’s a women’s only keeping-up-with-the-Joneses rat race that makes motherhood overwhelming. 

I don’t really buy organic foods. I let Luisa snack on cookies. I’ve never bought a toy for it’s educational value. I did have gluten-free brownies at her birthday party but really, it was because that brownie recipe makes wonderfully chewy, chocoaltely brownies. I didn’t diet or swear to run a half-marathon to lose the baby weight by 10 weeks after baby. I was back to shape after having Luisa, but my body will never be the same. 

That’s ok. 

It’s ok because motherhood changes us emotionally and mentally and physically is just part of that package. 

It’s ok because Luisa is happy, healthy, thriving, and loving. She’s smart, she’s playful and fun. All of those things that might not make me “mom enough” don’t matter because of that. 

And I’m mom enough to accept that. You should too. 

So, Happy Mother’s Day! You’re doing a great job. 

*Jessica Alba sucks. That woman went on a 1200-calorie-a-day diet and worked out one to three hours a day for five days a week. That’s crazy. 

This is so well written. Today it seems everyone is trying only to keep up, but out do everyone else. It’s a race to this “perfection”, but is it really perfection? What is perfection in motherhood or in life? I think everyone’s “perfect” life looks different and that is a good thing! Different makes thing interesting. Different makes people learn, strive and interact.

I know when our baby comes my goal is to do what is best for HER and what is best for MY family.

Source: sabine